Strength

“As your days, so shall your strength be.” - Deuteronomy 33:25

For the past 9 days, things have been very different for me. Before, my days were filled with apathy, struggle, failure, discouragement, and then weak resolve to try again the next day. But, lately, my days have been more peaceful, hopeful, and not filled with failure.

Why?

Simply put: God has been gracious to me. He remembered me and heard my cried for help...and he answered me. He has given me strength for today and great hope for tomorrow...and new mercy every morning.

And I am thankful.

Resolutions

No, I didn't forget I was shutting up already. But, since this post isn't about friends or singleness or weight-loss or the dark and treacherous cave that is my emotions...so I figure I'm safe.

And, so are you.

This post is about, well...Resolutions. You probably guessed that by the title because you are smart and I am not at all ambiguous or vague. I don't generally make New Years Resolutions. It's not that I think they are a bad thing, I just su...I mean "stink" at keeping them.

It might help if the resolutions I made were a bit more attainable by sheer will-power and God's grace, but mine typically involve marriage, miraculous weight-loss or a total personality make-over. But I'm not supposed to talk about that right now... See how little stick-to-it-ness I have! So...resolutions. Yes, I don't generally make them, but this year I made an exception and made two. I'll share one here and one on my other blog.

My first resolution is to read at least 6 books this year. I used to read way more than that, but over the past couple of years I've really gotten out of the habit of reading and I miss it. So, I'm starting small and hope to exceed my goal. There are already a few books on my "must read list", but I'm open to suggestions.

You got any?

Shutting up...

So, this morning, I re-read what I posted yesterday and was like, "That doesn't really make any sense!"

I blog because I have one-sided relationships in which I am free to share and pursue but it isn't reciprocated? I blog because it's just like the friendships I have?!?!

Clearly, my emotional state has effected my ability to effectively communicate my thoughts and feelings. So, until I can rightly do that...or I forget and post again...I will just shut up.


In the meantime, please enjoy this picture of a puppy snuggling with a stuffed animal.
























Additional, non-puppy pictures can be found on my other blog, too.

Keepin' it Real, Part 3. The Digression.

This installment has very little to do with eating.
It also might be my last post.

How's that for drama?

I'm only half serious about the last post thing, because, lets face it...I like blogging even if no one really reads it. Its a release. I need it.

Why?

Well, I don't really have many close friends. I have people that I know. People that will listen if I need to talk. People that will meet me for dinner or coffee if I extend an invitation. But, I don't really have anyone that calls on me to listen or meet for dinner or anything like that.

Don't get me wrong, I enjoy hosting things and initiating get-togethers and such. It's fun. It's just also nice, and I think necessary sometimes, to be on the receiving end of that...to know that people aren't just being kind, but actually do want to spend time with you. So much so that they invite and initiate.

When that doesn't happen, it sometimes makes being a single woman in her 30s very, very hard.

I'm not sure what is to be done about this, but I pray God will show me and give me the strength to change.